Not a normal title

Wow I haven't been posting for a really long time.

As you may have guessed it, the mundane school work leaves me no time to do anything like this, whatsoever.

I'm beginning to feel a lost sense of self. I don't feel like my old self anymore. I'm becoming a person I totally don't want to become, although the change may be good, it just isn't me anymore.

It seems to me, that I've been bothering too much about other people's business, that I neglected my own. It has never happened before. I don't know why, but I'm trying to understand the people around me, trying to make sense of my environment. As a result I neglected my academic pursuit. I don't like this, I want the rational, analytic and critical me back, the one who's obsessed with all the theories and creativity, the one who's in love with chemistry more than any person around her, even at the expense of losing this EQ that I have developed, for some strange reason.

Yes, time to abandon feelings and return to my thinking. I love to think more than to feel.

Anyway, I've concluded that humans are fundamentally incomprehensible, but theories can. I shall just pretend to be ignorant of my environment, although I clearly feel things are not very right. I don't want to be involved in all these politics anyway, they drain my energy away. I should reserve my energy for more useful things.

Like Chem O
Astro challenge
Catching up with all the parts of the syllabus that I don't understand

Gah

Sigh, and maybe to finally clear up the pile of secondary stuff that was meant to be cleared during the last December holiday.

When can I stop being distracted, stop be procrastinating and be more efficient. T.T

Btw I obtained 16384 on practice mode for 2048, and 4096 for the real thing. Yay.

Wait what? MUST NOT BE DISTRACTED BY 2048.

I think I must develop this habit of chanting "chem chem chem chem chem" whenever I feel like I'm being distracted.

Yeah I'll be fine :) Now why am I still writing this post