Feeling happy

I didn't know that waking up a bit earlier and enjoying the sunshine can be such a joyful thing. Ok I didn't exactly wake up very early, but 10 am is earlier than all my previous days when I couldn't fall asleep and end up waking at 5 sth pm in frustration. The previous days are so wasted. I want to sleep early but my screwed up body clock just don't allow me to. Anyway, today is a happy day. The day is so bright, so sunny and the wind so comforting. It feels just like a normal afternoon after school. It is as though time didn't affect me at all, as though I can play minecraft and do homework, just like an ordinary day in school time.

But I know, in minecraft and homework my secondary school days passed slowly, and they will never come back. Time, is fair, just, ruthless, emotionless. It governs the universe, it governs you. One day, your biological clock is going to stop too. You will leave, as well, and will never come back. 

Time always make me sad. But today is a happy day, so I'll talk about something else. Today, the feeling, is the most positive one I've had in this long holiday. I feel that I can embrace the whole world. Seeing sunshine just makes me happy. I can sing and dance around my house. My parents are both at work, they have been both at work since the time when I was in P3. But over the years, I begin to enjoy this solitude and freedom that they've granted me. Now I am alone in my house, nobody can see me, nobody can judge me. I do not have to care about people, I can just be myself. 

Today is a happy day. My heart is swelling of joy. How many sunny days like this have I missed? How many times when I was so frustrated by projects and school, I hardly noticed my surroundings? How many times do I find the crow that landed by my window annoying, instead of appreciating the beauty of the bird? How much time have I wasted in boredom, in games, in matter that doesn't concern me at all? 

Time is like a river. If you pour dirt in, the you in downstream will get dirty water. If you pour lemon and sugar, you are going to get lemonade, which is awesome.

There are the good, the bad and the ugly things in the world. What you see is by your own filter. What you do depends on what you see. Who you are depend on what you do. Therefore, selecting the right filter is important.

Today is a happy day. Today is going to be a happy day.