My Life

Okay so this is officially the post for describing my life's current state.

I'm now entering Junior College, fortunately and unfortunately being placed in two special programmes, SMTP and KI.

Fortunate because I can finally learn about the things I love, no more torture from GP and the humanities. With SMTP I'm presented with so many opportunities I've never dreamed of. I can finally stretch myself to the best of my abilities. With KI I'll be able to look at issues at such a deep level, I can finally think and talk about deep stuff legitly, without that looks from my friends. I'll also be a much wiser person who can observe the world in entirely different perspectives.

Unfortunate because I think I'm the only girl in the entire school to be in both SMTP and KI. Hopefully after the JAE students join in, I won't be the only one anymore. Both KI and SMTP requires interest, time, energy and intellectual aptitude. I know that I won't have much free time of my own anymore.

Actually I doubt whether I have the aptitude even though I passed their selection tests (not really for SMTP, was direct admissioned and screwed the selection tests badly). There are people I know who are way more qualified for SMTP or KI that didn't take them due to practical concerns. What makes me think I can manage well? Hopefully, I can gain confidence along the way. Since the selections say I'm qualified, I'll trust them. Who will put trust in you if you don't even trust yourself?

Although I pretty much will sacrifice my personal time and minecraft for the next two years, I think the result will be highly rewarding. What I gained from the next two years will stay with me for life. They will make me a better person than whom I am now. I can't wait to start learning and being lead to a new, exciting world.

My general plan for my life:

- Get scholarship to study Chemistry in UK
- Study Chemistry in Cambridge
- Finish graduate studies and maybe post-graduate studies
- Do research in a University that I like
- Do research for the rest of my life

Meanwhile:
- Learn piano and music theories so that I can appreciate music pieces which I like. It is also to balance my brain.
- Make friends whom I respect and feel comfortable with because we have similar personalities.
- Read many interesting books to enrich myself
- Learn how to ride a bike and how to swim. Sometimes learning a skill can save lives.

Things I want to do but may not do:
- Learn Latin
- Take drawing as a recreational activity
- Produce short animations. I think animation is the most accurate way to narrate things going in my mind.
- Learn coding and programming