In fact I don't really know what to write, just what's going on around this time. There's nothing deep or insightful here.
First, school is opening soon, in just two days time. I'm sure that I'm not ready for it, but I'll welcome and embrace it. I miss school. Although school has imperfections here and there, I think it is still the best place to learn. First few weeks are just orientations and trial lectures, quite slack but we have essay test on the first day T.T I think my English has deteriorated a lot in the course of this holiday. I'm just striving for fluent and grammatically correct English now. I won't go and memorise vocab for the sake of memorising vocab.
So, that's one big thing. Another big thing is that I just started learning piano. The teacher is young but very nice. First lesson is always easy, and furthermore I already know most of the basic theory stuff. This is a big contrast to the other teacher I encountered two years ago, where she taught me difficult things on the first lesson and yawn when I play. That course I had two years ago is an accelerated one. I don't count it as proper piano lesson at all.
Learning new things is always exciting. I'm very happy about these two recent happenings.
But I have a lot of worries for JC. My zodiac is a rather unlucky one for this year, but my classmates who are one year younger than me also have their zodiac signs saying they are not very lucky, so we can be unlucky together. Just kidding, I won't believe it in the first place. It's normal that life has up and downs. If I attribute all the bad things in my life to fate that will just make me feel more depressed. Instead I shall view these as trainings for myself, so that I will grow and become a better person. A positive attitude is better than any good luck bestowed upon me.
Choosing KI while in SMTP may be very exhausting but in all the ways I can think of it will be better than GP + Econ. Getting into SMTP also makes me doubt and worry. I have all the passion in the world but do I have the brain? Do I have what it takes to study maths and science? Will I be willing to sacrifice all my time, be doubly hardworking than the rest and come out having the same standard as those extremely smart ones? Yes I'm doubting myself because I don't really know my potential well. Who I am facing are a class of very intelligent people. The stress is there. However, I must have a positive attitude. Instead of being involved in this endless competition of comparison, I can learn from people. In fact I'm excited to meet my classmates as well, maybe I can make some friends who have similar personalities as me. Maybe I should stop thinking of it and start sleeping. Yeah I should sleep.
Okay bye.
Oh no I just thought of another thing I want to write down. I hosted a mini reality escape game in my room yesterday! It was fun, but sadly only two friends came because the rest were not free. Then we sang karaoke. So loud, much crazy, wow.
I wish I can post some pictures but details of the game are to remain confidential, sorry.
Okay really bye.
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